I've struggled with body dysmorphia probably most of my life, but it became pretty obvious and debilitating during my masters degree.
I said I was never gonna post anything too private over here, I believe saying I suffer from it isn't something to hide (and honestly, anyone who knew the signs would notice that about me irl).
Yesterday I had a pretty bad trigger...and today I got my period. That explains a lot.
In the end, I think a friend of mine is right, I need to accept that, despite what other people may think about my appearance, I'll never fit my own standards, so there's no point on stressing over my appearance. And it's not like being pretty would ever give me something.