Waking up a day I planned to not wake up

I feel pretty weird, slightly dissociated, but relatively calmer. I finished this small piece that I started when I was feeling way happier and more hopeful than I do at the moment. This proves art can carry feelings, because this one portrays feelings opposite to what I carry, and it feels almost disgusting.

But I post it anyway, because I like my color choices, and maybe when I feel better I'll appreciate it the same way I did when I started it.